Title of the Artwork: Walking through the valley of despair
Photography
Author: HUI Min Man Joseph (CCST Vancouver Master of Theological Studies student)
 

These photos are my memories between 2020 and 2023, showing how I navigated through that valley of despair. In the midst of my sorrow, I returned to the embrace of nature, be still and silence, listening to the voice of God conveyed through the beauty of creation. Through the tranquility of nature, God accompanied me, guiding me through the valley of sorrow and leading me to a new chapter in life.

 

I love nature. Whenever I have free time, I enjoy strolling through the natural beauty surrounding Tai Po. This area is filled with lush greenery, and as I walk along the mountain paths, I find comfort deep within. In these tranquil moments, I embrace the silence and meditate on the words, "Be still, and know." These quiet times alone are precious to me—they are moments for prayer, reflection, and honest conversation with God. It is in these special and peaceful moments that I feel most relaxed and most authentic.

The year 2020 became a turning point in my career. Amid societal changes and the appointment of a new CEO at my organization, I found myself standing at a crossroads in life. Everything seemed to be undergoing tremendous change, and I felt a profound sense of loss and confusion, unsure of how to proceed in my work. I struggled to align with the new CEO's values and working style, which eroded my trust in her and created tension in our relationship. This deteriorating relationship left me feeling lost and unsettled, making me question whether I should remain in this position until retirement or courageously alter the trajectory of my life.

Amid these uncertainties and the heavy burden of daily work pressures, I felt depressed and stressed. I considered resigning, but the thought of giving up this senior position—a role that allowed me to engage in meaningful and fulfilling work—made the decision even more complicated. These conflicting emotions left me feeling trapped and weighed down.

In the midst of this chaos, I sought refuge in nature. Spending time outdoors became my lifeline, bringing moments of tranquility and renewal. I treasured my walks in the nearby park, where I could disconnect from work pressures and simply live in the moment. During one walk, I noticed a sparrow perched on a rock. I stopped and quietly watched it for a long time, feeling an unexpected connection. In that moment, a hymn came to mind: "His Eye Is on the Sparrow." These words brought me immense comfort, reminding me that just as God cares for the sparrow, He has always been watching over me. This simple yet profound encounter with the sparrow became a source of hope. It assured me that I am not alone, and even in the midst of challenges, God is with me. This time of reflection in nature renewed my spirit and helped me face the future challenges with peace and trust in His plan.
 

The sadness and depression from that difficult period lingered for a long time. In search of some relief, I began spending more time in nature after work. Walking along the riverside became a soothing ritual, offering me moments of peace and reflection.

One day, while walking along the Lam Tsuen River, a scene deeply moved me. I saw a little egret standing alone on a branch. That tranquil yet solitary image touched me profoundly, as if it reflected my own situation. It reminded me of the need to pause, reflect, and meditate before taking the next step. Like the egret, I felt as though I was standing at a crossroads, seeking clarity for the path ahead.

In that moment, I prayed to God for guidance. As I reflected on my life and struggles, I felt an unexpected connection, as if someone truly understood my heart. This assurance that I was not alone, that I didn’t have to face challenges by myself, brought me great comfort. Feeling watched over and understood was deeply reassuring.

I prayed earnestly, asking God to guide my direction and illuminate the road ahead. I entrusted all my uncertainties and the rest of my life into His hands, trusting in His timing and guidance. In that quiet moment, I felt at peace knowing I could wait for His direction and was confident that He would walk with me every step of the way into the future.

One day, as I was walking along the riverbank, I saw a little egret pause for a moment and then continue walking alone along the riverside. This scene deeply moved me. I stood there, captivated by the sight, spending about 15 minutes quietly watching the egret. Finally, I took a photo of the bird, hoping to preserve this quiet and profound moment.

In life, there are paths we must walk alone. At times, no one can accompany us, and we have to take those steps by ourselves. However, in these solitary moments, I came to understand a deeper truth: though the journey may appear lonely, we are never truly alone. God is always with us, accompanying us every step of the way.

As I reflected on the little egret and its solitary journey, a new sense of insight and comfort welled up in my heart. God's presence reassured me that, even in my weariness and uncertainty, I have never been truly alone. I opened my heart to Him, sharing my burdens and fears, and prayed for His guidance to help me faithfully walk the path He has set before me. That moment deepened my trust in Him, reminding me that even on the loneliest roads, His companionship sustains and encourages me.
 

Depression often makes me feel inadequate and worthless. I blame myself for not being able to persevere in the face of challenges and doubt whether I have the ability to overcome difficulties. Lost in self-doubt, I struggle to believe that I can improve or regain stability.

One day, while walking in nature, I noticed a small yellow flower. Its vibrant and fresh appearance immediately caught my attention, even though it was missing a petal. Despite its imperfection, the flower still appeared unique and full of life. I stopped to take a photo of it and spent some time reflecting on why this little flower moved me so deeply. Its incompleteness did not diminish its beauty or vitality.

This realization touched my heart: even if I feel inadequate or "not good enough," I can still live with purpose and a positive outlook, embracing my authentic self.
 

Another deeply moving moment was seeing a tree bathed in golden sunlight. The scene was breathtaking, filled with an atmosphere of warmth and hope. The radiant sunlight shining through the branches seemed to reflect God's presence, filling me with a sense of renewal, hope, and boundless possibilities.

In that moment, I deeply felt God's protection and guidance, and my spirit was uplifted.

I praise God for His revelation, realizing that He has bestowed upon me the gift of counseling and serving others. This calling is the stage on which I give my all for Him.

Life’s difficulties may be challenging, but I remind myself not to give up easily. God’s presence assures me that even in my imperfections and struggles, I have purpose, strength, and His unchanging love to guide me forward.